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Another lovesick Bronco. [Long]
I haven't posted on her in a while, and I am actually nearing the end of my dilemma with this girl, but regardless, I am going to post this.
Sorry, it is long. I will try to keep it short.
Intro:
Me- 16 years old. 10th grade.
Her (Lindsey)- 15 years old. 10th grade. One of the most gorgeous people I have ever lied eyes on, but more than that, she is nice, hangs with the right crowd, good morals (never had a boyfriend, sex, or even kissed for that matter), smart like me (all honors classes), very mature, not popular, *****y, etc. She is very special in my eyes. She is a little shy, but I know her enough to have seen her when she isn't shy. To see her smile at me, or laugh at me feels so great. Pic: (middle) http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/i...5fef90a6a7.jpg
Elaine- Lindsey's best friend. For some reason she seems to have a very big disliking towards me. She practically hates me. I don't understand why. I do nothing mean to her, ever. Just... naturally... *****y I guess..
The story:
OK, so back in October. I had asked her to be my homecoming date. She said yes, then the next day changed her mind, because she had something going on with another guy named Drew. She told me that she liked him and that was why. I had heard rumors she liked him, but I guess she was shy, and denied it. I shouldn't have believed her because everything pointed towards her liking him. I could make her laugh, and smile, and I thought maybe she liked me. And, maybe she did/does a little bit. Either way, it hurt me very much.
Later on that week, Drew changed his mind on her, and told her he didn't want to go with her anymore. It was only a week to homecoming. I figured since Drew was out of the picture, she would go with me then. I asked the night before homecoming on the phone (should've asked in person like the first time, but I actually put a lot of pressure on her the first time. I gave her a couple of seconds to answer, and practically corned her). Anyway, when I asked again, she said she wanted to go as friends. I was devastated. Most depressing night of my life. 4 hours of restless sleep, and HC was the next day.
Homecoming:
Me and Lindsey were in the same group of friends when we went to homecoming. She invited me and my best friend, before I asked her to be my date, to go w/ them. So, there is some tension, because she probably knows she hurt me, while at dinner. She shows up looking absolutely stunning. We sat next to each other but exchanged very little words. Almost none. But dinner is now over. We are going to the dance.
We are at the dance. At first I break off from the original group. But then after around 30 minutes, I ask her to dance w/ me on the slowdance. She says yes. I loved that. It was amazing. We then opened up. Tension was gone. We were back to normal. Talking, and danced with eachother again that night. It was an entire 5 hours of me, with her. I invited her to go bowling afterwards. She asked her friends if they were going, but they weren't but she still said "Well, I'm going". I felt good that she was going not only if her friends were. Unfortunately she couldn't go because her mom didn't let her. That was the best night of my life, and I hate to think back to it, because I am sad that it only happened once.
Working up to the present:
She knew i liked her. I was going to let her know how I felt. We were texting about me having a talk with her during fall break. Unfortunately, she got grounded, and her phone taken away on fall break, and till now doesn't have her cell. So, we never got to talk...
So, there is a party at my friends house. Elaine goes. I talk to her about Lindsey. I tell her not to tell Lindsey. She says "I will tell her".
And she leaves in the middle of the party because it is "lame". What an ass...
After fall break, for some reason, we didn't talk and things were awkward between me and Lindsey. It's ok though, I broke that ice. We got back to almost normal. So, we are at one week ago. I ask her on Thursday to go to the movies with me and 2 of my friends on Tuesday. She doesn't let me know until Tuesday she cannot go, when I have to ask her. I just.. assumed maybe she genuinely couldn't go. (Said she had to go to her dads, which she has to do on weekends)
Present:
I figure, I need to ask her on a 1 on 1 date. Straight answer. So on Tuesday I asked her to hang out with me on Friday (tomorrow
) She said "Umm... I have to see if I have to go to my dads or not". She didn't sound very excited about it. I tell her to let me know the next day.
It is yesterday. She doesn't get back to me, I have to ask her. She said her dad was away so she couldn't find out. I think she is doesn't want to hurt me, but it hurts more to play games with me than to be straight with me. I ask for her AIM, and she gives it to me. But she doesn't get on much. I got nervous, dropped my powerade, tried to kick it to the side, but kinda kicked it at her...
I nervously laughed it off. Later that night her friend Elaine IM's me. Read the convo here: http://www.truecheaters.com/paste/pastebin.php?show=100 I messed up bad.. Called Lindsey lazy... That was so stupid!! Also during S.S. class. Lindsey and Elaine are talking about making a LaCrosse team and Lindsey says "You could be on our team" and then Elaine goes "Uhhhhhh..." It was so rude. She is so mean to me.. I said no because I'd get hurt (I was joking, I'd love to play with their team)
Now it is today. In S.S. class Lindsey asks for some help w/ something her and Elaine are working on and Elaine goes "Yeah Jad, because she is too lazy to read it herself!" Lindsey turned back around. It was embarrassing and unnecessary. After class, I confronted Lindsey and told her I didn't mean it that way, and she started laughing and said she understood what I meant. I don't know if she really did but w/e. And she never got back to me either.
Tomorrow is Friday! I guess she doesn't want to hurt me, but I am sick of waiting, and indirect answers.
Tomorrow I am going to say "Lindsey, I need to know something. Do you really want to hang out with me today?"
If she is still afraid to hurt me she could say "I do, but I can't because I'll be at my dads" or something like that to which I say "Look Lindsey, I really would like to hangout with you, but if you don't have the same feelings for me I'd like to know, because I don't want to waste anymore of yours or my time."
So any input from you guys would be greatly appreciated.
I am at the last strings. My chances look bleak. Incredibly.
Sorry, it is long. I will try to keep it short.
Intro:
Me- 16 years old. 10th grade.
Her (Lindsey)- 15 years old. 10th grade. One of the most gorgeous people I have ever lied eyes on, but more than that, she is nice, hangs with the right crowd, good morals (never had a boyfriend, sex, or even kissed for that matter), smart like me (all honors classes), very mature, not popular, *****y, etc. She is very special in my eyes. She is a little shy, but I know her enough to have seen her when she isn't shy. To see her smile at me, or laugh at me feels so great. Pic: (middle) http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/i...5fef90a6a7.jpg
Elaine- Lindsey's best friend. For some reason she seems to have a very big disliking towards me. She practically hates me. I don't understand why. I do nothing mean to her, ever. Just... naturally... *****y I guess..
The story:
OK, so back in October. I had asked her to be my homecoming date. She said yes, then the next day changed her mind, because she had something going on with another guy named Drew. She told me that she liked him and that was why. I had heard rumors she liked him, but I guess she was shy, and denied it. I shouldn't have believed her because everything pointed towards her liking him. I could make her laugh, and smile, and I thought maybe she liked me. And, maybe she did/does a little bit. Either way, it hurt me very much.
Later on that week, Drew changed his mind on her, and told her he didn't want to go with her anymore. It was only a week to homecoming. I figured since Drew was out of the picture, she would go with me then. I asked the night before homecoming on the phone (should've asked in person like the first time, but I actually put a lot of pressure on her the first time. I gave her a couple of seconds to answer, and practically corned her). Anyway, when I asked again, she said she wanted to go as friends. I was devastated. Most depressing night of my life. 4 hours of restless sleep, and HC was the next day.
Homecoming:
Me and Lindsey were in the same group of friends when we went to homecoming. She invited me and my best friend, before I asked her to be my date, to go w/ them. So, there is some tension, because she probably knows she hurt me, while at dinner. She shows up looking absolutely stunning. We sat next to each other but exchanged very little words. Almost none. But dinner is now over. We are going to the dance.
We are at the dance. At first I break off from the original group. But then after around 30 minutes, I ask her to dance w/ me on the slowdance. She says yes. I loved that. It was amazing. We then opened up. Tension was gone. We were back to normal. Talking, and danced with eachother again that night. It was an entire 5 hours of me, with her. I invited her to go bowling afterwards. She asked her friends if they were going, but they weren't but she still said "Well, I'm going". I felt good that she was going not only if her friends were. Unfortunately she couldn't go because her mom didn't let her. That was the best night of my life, and I hate to think back to it, because I am sad that it only happened once.
Working up to the present:
She knew i liked her. I was going to let her know how I felt. We were texting about me having a talk with her during fall break. Unfortunately, she got grounded, and her phone taken away on fall break, and till now doesn't have her cell. So, we never got to talk...
So, there is a party at my friends house. Elaine goes. I talk to her about Lindsey. I tell her not to tell Lindsey. She says "I will tell her".
And she leaves in the middle of the party because it is "lame". What an ass...After fall break, for some reason, we didn't talk and things were awkward between me and Lindsey. It's ok though, I broke that ice. We got back to almost normal. So, we are at one week ago. I ask her on Thursday to go to the movies with me and 2 of my friends on Tuesday. She doesn't let me know until Tuesday she cannot go, when I have to ask her. I just.. assumed maybe she genuinely couldn't go. (Said she had to go to her dads, which she has to do on weekends)
Present:
I figure, I need to ask her on a 1 on 1 date. Straight answer. So on Tuesday I asked her to hang out with me on Friday (tomorrow
) She said "Umm... I have to see if I have to go to my dads or not". She didn't sound very excited about it. I tell her to let me know the next day. It is yesterday. She doesn't get back to me, I have to ask her. She said her dad was away so she couldn't find out. I think she is doesn't want to hurt me, but it hurts more to play games with me than to be straight with me. I ask for her AIM, and she gives it to me. But she doesn't get on much. I got nervous, dropped my powerade, tried to kick it to the side, but kinda kicked it at her...
I nervously laughed it off. Later that night her friend Elaine IM's me. Read the convo here: http://www.truecheaters.com/paste/pastebin.php?show=100 I messed up bad.. Called Lindsey lazy... That was so stupid!! Also during S.S. class. Lindsey and Elaine are talking about making a LaCrosse team and Lindsey says "You could be on our team" and then Elaine goes "Uhhhhhh..." It was so rude. She is so mean to me.. I said no because I'd get hurt (I was joking, I'd love to play with their team)Now it is today. In S.S. class Lindsey asks for some help w/ something her and Elaine are working on and Elaine goes "Yeah Jad, because she is too lazy to read it herself!" Lindsey turned back around. It was embarrassing and unnecessary. After class, I confronted Lindsey and told her I didn't mean it that way, and she started laughing and said she understood what I meant. I don't know if she really did but w/e. And she never got back to me either.
Tomorrow is Friday! I guess she doesn't want to hurt me, but I am sick of waiting, and indirect answers.
Tomorrow I am going to say "Lindsey, I need to know something. Do you really want to hang out with me today?"
If she is still afraid to hurt me she could say "I do, but I can't because I'll be at my dads" or something like that to which I say "Look Lindsey, I really would like to hangout with you, but if you don't have the same feelings for me I'd like to know, because I don't want to waste anymore of yours or my time."
So any input from you guys would be greatly appreciated.
I am at the last strings. My chances look bleak. Incredibly.
I've like her for like 3 or 4 years now..
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